It's no major update.
But I want you to know that we're continuing to wait for our placement.
To date, we became official foster care parents at the end of September. During the months of October and November, we received four calls within four weeks for four separate placement possibilities. We declined all four, holding out for the little one (that may or may not even be in utero yet). This little one is the whole reason we started the process of becoming an approved foster care family, and we feel at-peace about waiting for this specific situation.
Thoughts and questions enter our minds. Sometimes often.
*How long do we wait?
*When will we find out if or when this birthmom is due?
*Should we consider other foster care placements before this one?
*Am I capable of doing this?
*What if this doesn't work out?
*Is it foolish for us to wait? Should I worry what others will think?
*Will we have to wait nearly two years like we waited for our daughter?
*Do we put things on hold as we wait? Dreams. Vacations. Hobbies.
For us, it's a balance. We want to be proactive. We want to do our part and be responsible. But we also want to trust. And part of that trusting involves waiting. It could be more hours. More days. More months. Even more years. I don't like waiting. I want things now. Yesterday, in fact. By nature, I like to have things in order. But the Lord has taught (and continues to teach) me patience, contentment, and trust. And as I've slowly begun to understand this "learning moment" in my life, God's granted me (us, really) a peace that passes all understanding.
I experienced that same peace when adopting our daughter. I had never experienced that kind of peace before that time in my life. But I trust it more now because it was very real then. And very right. That same sense of peace now reminds me that God is in control. That peace reassures me that things are going to be okay; maybe not quite as I planned but as they are meant to be. That peace also calms my heart and mind in those moments that I doubt or begin to wonder or worry what others might think.
So as long as my trust is in the Lord, I can rest in knowing that this peace is part of the plan that He has for my life. "If God is for me, who can be against me?" I wish I had more of an update to give, but please know that we're doing okay, and I'm thankful that I can know that God's hand is in this whole foster care process for us.
One day, I will again look back at how the details all aligned for this season of my life and give God all of the glory. We are your instruments, Lord - use us. In Your timing. Your perfect timing.
